Triviality, My Triviality

 

The time of the year when my birthday comes by visit is drawing near. People make wishes on their birthdays, and it’s a beautiful thing. Though this year there is no cake, no card, no friend, can I sing myself Happy Birthday and make some wishes too? 

I wish to be around my beloved friends and stop being just “some guy who would occasionally show up”. I wish to no longer be missed out, misunderstood, or mistakenly opinioned.

I wish to be around families, to be welcomed and to be spoiled, to be actually considered as important and irreplaceable, not alienated. I wish to be home.

I wish to be loved, cared, comforted, and respected.

Too much of wishful thinking, isn’t it? How can I be around my friends, if they are all scattered in Vietnam, Montana, Missouri, and California since I am freaking nomadic? Will I ever be able to get myself a “home”? And will I ever be a good man?  

Ok, that’s it for unhappy thoughts. I should never self-ask too much: there ain’t a “someone” to answer the questions for me. Besides, everything in this world is into place and there eternally is a plan. I am to leave my trivial thoughts behind and move forward.

It’s ok. Everything will be just fine. And someday, I will be alone no longer : )

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